Hmmmm... I wondered, can’t you do some more research or something?
Our therapist agreed that what we’re dealing with is pure chemistry. If my son is well, he can do well and if he’s not, he can’t. In other words, when the chemistry is off in my son’s brain, no therapy is going to help. We can’t do any more than what we’ve been taught to do. We just have to wait for the chemicals in his brain to return to normal.
He then went on to say that my son’s case is very unusual, it’s like a “mixed bag of symptoms”. He finds the voices and visual hallucinations almost unheard of in children, then he referred to bipolar kids being less than 1% of the population. So this all seemed to stump him. He said that we have a moving target and he doesn’t want to look ahead into the future and get our hopes up. He just wants to deal with each symptom as they come and try our best to help him get through his childhood the best we can.
From there, he said the only alternative left is more medication, so I was told to speak with our psychiatrist’s nurse (the gal in charge pretty much). When I spoke with her, running through all the symptoms and when they occur, she said that it appears he was having rapid cycling and the voices were a concern. Our option is to increase the Trileptal, but first we were told to monitor these behaviors for a little bit more before we increase the meds. I like this approach, going nice and slow.
As I pushed further for what she thought my son’s symptoms were she said “It sounds like bipolar, but since he’s so young we just never know what will happen in the future.”
I asked her, “So you think it’s possible with all his symptoms that he may still out grow this?”
She said, “Yes... and we don’t want to label him at such a young age since this could be hard on him.”
At that I kinda laughed, “but he already knows something is wrong, we aren’t hiding it from him by not putting a label on it, in fact, he’s already labeled it. He calls it his ‘anger problem’ and said this week that it’s ruining his life”.
Then I asked her “So either my son has bipolar symptoms as a child and will grow up to be bipolar as an adult or he has bipolar symptoms as a child, but his brain will change as he develops and he’ll be free of medication and illness as an adult?”
She said “Yes. That’s pretty much what we’re looking at. So your job is to keep him safe, keep those around him safe and try and help him have the best childhood possible under the circumstances and don’t think about tomorrow, just take one day at a time because today is perfect.”